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My Cesarean Poem

The Best Thing You Can Do for Mothers, Babies, Birth and Families is to Become Net Savvy!

I just had my mind expanded this morning by Laureen Hudson's hour long online session on how to use the internet to get a message out. Laureen's session “Creating an Online Presence," gave me a wealth of information in a short time and impressed me with how many people are out there who completely rely on the internet for their information. I needed that, and maybe you do, too.  

  - Ina May Gaskin 

 I just hung up the phone from doing the hour long session with Laureen Hudson on “Creating an Online Presence”.  Laureen’s know-how and expertise were enough to wake up even the birth oldtimers like me and Ina May to the many unused opportunities of the internet.  Laureen’s engaging and easygoing teaching style made even those scary (to me) terms like “hypertext, streaming, wordpress, technorati, feedreader and trackback” start to make sense.  Her passion is to reach the generation of young women who have not yet given birth BEFORE they fall into the black hole of aggressive obstetrics.  I came away from the class today with lots of ways to improve my website and make it more modern, usable and interesting for readers.  This class will run again this coming Friday (August 22) and I heartily recommend it.  
- Gloria Lemay


 
REGISTER NOW! SPACE IS LIMITED! 

Cost: $35 per session 

Each session will be 60 minutes in length 

Creating An Online Presence
Sunday, September 7 at 5:00 p.m. Pacific / 8:00 p.m. Eastern
Friday, September 19 at 12:00 p.m. Pacific / 3:00 p.m. Eastern
Monday, September 22 at 9:00 a.m. Pacific / 12:00 p.m. Eastern 

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This session will include a case study of Dr. Amy and how we shoot ourselves in the collective feet by visiting and commenting on her website.  (PS Hope you enjoyed the Gotcha! page from our last email!)
Sunday, October 5 at 5:00 p.m. Pacific / 8:00 p.m. Eastern
Friday, October 24 at 12:00 p.m. Pacific / 3:00 p.m. Eastern
Monday, October 27 at 9:00 a.m. Pacific / 12:00 p.m. Eastern   


My Cesarean Poem

I had a cesarean

I didn't want one

I wanted a baby

All wet and messy

Plopped onto my bare chest

To comfort in his first moment

By the stroke of my hand

And a nuzzle at my breast

 

I had a cesarean

All betadine and beeping machines

And anonymous blue masks

Seeing my insides

And me- numb to my toes

With no feeling

 

Except heartbreak

 

My plans

And my dreams

Were betrayed

By the orange label

Attached to my chart

Code for "high risk"

 

I didn't feel high risk

I hated that label

 

Who are these people

Did you start?

I'm here!  I'm here!  Why is

No one talking to me?

I hear my baby cry, my baby cry

But can't see MY BABY

My baby, my baby, someone bring me

My baby

No answers

No explanation

I am alone

Except for the blue masks

Putting my insides back in.

 

He was brought to me

Already clean and wrapped

And frantic

I couldn't even hold him

I'm sure it is not what he expected

Either.

 

Then the blood

Then the pain

My belly no longer full of baby

Grew distended with air

 

"It doesn't matter now"  woman #1 said

"I had three cesareans, they are no big deal" bitch #2 said

"Your sister sprang right back"  my mother said

(My sister was 19)

 

I have flashbacks

Like a war vet

And a sadness that

No one wants to hear about

And pain.

 

It does matter

It is a big deal

It is a mourning

I had a cesarean

I didn't want one.

 

                   -Barbara Stratton

                    Mom to Charlie born 1999 by cesarean section

                    Comments to the author WomanCareDoula@Comcast.net



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